Hi everyone
Al huge apology to those who drop by my blog. In recent month, work has gotten progressively harder to deal with. I work in a form of call centre. I actually work from home and the call are routed to me. In recent month due to staff leaving in droves and managements desire to make our job even harder, my depression has returned with a vengeance and I shut all and sundry out. Everything that I enjoy becomes a chore, it is easier for me to sit and cry or sleep.
Situational depression or adjustment disorder, call it what you will. I was diagnosed with it officially around 7 years ago. My then boss sent me to a psychiatrist (yep, I worked for a Dr.) as he claimed I had anger issues (arrogant Dr. vs Gemini). The verdict, situational depression, adjustment disorder or when life gets too much, I emotionally shut down.
At present, we are living in a duplex that is falling apart as the owner and/or the estate agent refuses to repair anything (we'll do it when you move out) and on top of that, the couple who live upstairs, are hot heads and the guy especially. For years we have listened to the arguements, the beatings and aggression. We are trying to move but it has been a long process. We are near the end but still have more things to shift out from the new home (old home really, moving back to the family home as everyone is now at rest) before we can full on move it. Still hoping for early 2015.
So between crappy rental house, agro man upstairs, a slow move, issues with the dance school I used to teach for (that is another story in itself) reduced work hours and craptastic working conditions, I have gone downhill emotionally and physically over the last 6 months to the point where I am frequently sick, injuries are not healing quickly and the social isolation has really made me retract from everything. I am still making soap, just don't seem to brood over it as much as I used to. I am hoping this will pass soon, I really do.
In a nutshell, I will be back, but if I am quiet and MiA, you know why. The black dog has come around and he isn't leaving any time soon. Bring on 2015 and a brighter future.
Soapy hugs
Kayla
